hollow.

You didn't love her. You don't destroy the people you love. - Greys Anatomy

For the first time in a long while, I felt that pain again. I felt that pain of what it was like to lose you, exactly how I felt when I pushed you away. It all feels the same. You'd assume that after this long, it wouldn't hurt this bad and hey, that maybe even by now I'd be completely over it. But I'm back where I started.

Now I'll write, "I love you" down, the number of times you said it to me, and I'll shove the pages down your throat so you can use them on the next person who thinks they are your entire world.

I don’t think you’re leaving. I think you’re running. And what I can’t figure out is, are you running towards something you want? Or are you running away from something you’re afraid to want?

you wanna play the game? it's like this:you play around, you have fun, you share secrets,you tell stories, you hold hands, you think about forever.but you don't fall in love.the first person who does- loses.

you would know that i seem like i have everything under control,but really im bursting at the seams.if you really knew me, you would know that i gave up everything for love,and now i have nothing..

my smile can cover up what's inside. though my heart is drowning, i can still laugh. even if my soul starts breaking down, i can still tell a joke. even if i'm dying inside, i can still look so funny. i guess that's how my life would go. i just have to smile and be happy even if the world is slowly killing me.

Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors, once they're opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it's been lost, can never be won back.

But sometimes, no matter how hard you love someone, they just cant love you back in the same way and believe me, loving someone who cant love you back is way lonelier than being alone.

You don't "think" you were in love. If you were in love with someone, truly in love, you will know without a single fucking doubt in your mind. Because it changes you. It consumes you. Trust me, if you were in love with someone, you couldn't dare question it.

if i tell you that i love you, will you love me back?
well, no way. you used to. i still remember that.

It's like my dreams are slipping away throughmy fingers. It's like I don't even want themanymore. But I do.

two questions: do you need someone? or do you need me?

Let me ruin your life, let me break your heart, then I'll ask you why we can't be friends. Let me rip your world into little pieces, let me destroy who you thought you were, and then I'll ask if we can be friends.