i don't understand.

i just don't get it. when you're in a "relationship" with someone who you'd freakin die for and things are going pretty shitty in your life at home and as well as theirs, how does that intrude with the relationship? HONESTLY! your partner is going to be there for you always. You don't just put something that means so much to another person on pause because you're fucking too lazy to work things out. this is where i love marilyn monroe's quote, "if you can't handle me at my worst than you definitely don't deserve me at my best." something like that. argh argh argh argh. i hate this so bloody much and i'm really sick of staying up for most of the night crying while you're probably chatting up someone or not even caring at all. i don't care about what ever strings that come with you, i just want you. please let me have you. please realise what this is doing to me and come back and tell me you love me and that you'll fight for me.